So random

Coherent thoughts...How does that happen...So much has happened in the past 1 week..so much of it has passed my by and so much of it I have been a part of...

My nose boil post my nose ring refuses to go away..even after copious amounts of haldi every week...part of my nose is permanently tinged with yellow...I check myself in every reflecting surface..and it just seems to be getting bigger!!

Like I wrote on FB, september is a month of many goodbyes...My sister is leaving, Sanaya is leaving and it's suddenly too soon and I haven't got any time...I wonder at times, did i take on too much, should i have spent these months with ppl...then i shake myself..coz they're not dying they're just moving ahead...

Moving ahead is nice...every once in a month I cut my nails super short..so I can't hold things properly then...i just snip them off..same goes with my hair...super short and then long...

An important insight I got into myself today, which explains why people go all uhhh..what did she say around me..I'm so busy trying to get over my shyness that I talk a lot to fill the silence and in my talking a lot , my speed reaches 32 x and no one gets me..or i give out random nervous answers...

Many goodbyes..I said one three days ago. I sometimes think that i will explode one day, with all that I'm carrying inside...How do you behave, what do you say, how do you say it!!! You are supposed to live by your wits and smarts, being nice and honest doesn't help always..But i disagree, you be what you are, it's upto the other person to take him as much as they can..Men can be such pricks sometimes...All they have is porn films for brains!

I've been longing to write poems but my head won't form them