Changing winds

I may say it's purging of a kind...Or the fact that I have simply come to terms with me...Myself and my restless mind. And my dad interrupted me..hence the flow of words have stopped. To write, interminably, till mind and hand both cry out in agony..Or boredom. Such a scary word. Boredom.

I feel light...after many months of hatred, anger, annoyance. I feel light, strong enough to accept things and yet sometimes I feel the need. But I know better now.

Life isn't simply working. It's about feeling. Feeling is the essence. I read books as an escape.. plan things in my head and I dream. And my dreams have come back. With color, dialogue and even feelings. I can sense. Touch.

I'm not a true guju, the mighty thepla blood doesn't run in my veins...since I cannot hang on to money. It runs the water. And each I make a pact to myself. Today I shall save. No, nahin, naaa...Can't..Little trinkets amuse me. Make me happy. Nothing major, I just like to look, browse, watch the sparkle and tinkle.

So I take a few minutes and watch. I like watching, people, trees, buses, animals...sometimes I rudely stare, unaware that I'm doing so...till people catch me. In reality I'm only looking at how their features are...determining how they are as people...their personality, their character.

The feel of wind, carrying with it the scent of rain and earth, which blows through my hair, makes me want to jump and break out into a song...or the lovely view of the railyard, green, cool and mysterious wih big sprawling trees and desolated outhouses. I always want to go there.

Today I asked myself a very important question - what is a bad friend? Or rather, what is a good friend? The one who tells you everything, who takes an active part in your life...and tells you when you're wrong?

And like always I come back to my argument - "Preconceived notions". A friend can be someone who is only interested in you till a certain level, beyond which he doesn't care for you...same goes for you and someone else...So what is a good friend? And a bad friend?

Lastly the puzzler - Who came first, the saas aur the bahu?