Cheesy

It's been 5 days now and I've been eating chaat at the same stall at around the same time in a row...The stall guy thinks im mad. Coz I order only pani puri and sevpuri regularly like clockwork...for the past 5 days. Maybe I should get a membership card. Maybe he can give me some discounts, best customer so on and so forth...

I looked at my old blog posts today...and the pattern looked the same, the treatment the same and the tone help me god was the same. The fun has gone, so has the will to write...to amuse, to get amused...to wonder and to question.

Society, this is the way to behave. If you need money, if you need fame, if you want to live. You can't tell people to go fuck themselves, you can't question because it's disrespectful and rude, and you cannot have a mind which allows you to point out what is wrong in the system...Spirit is quenched because before you, their spirits were crushed and countless others's before them. Young blood, young blood....and in their minds is a big stopblock..do not speak out of turn.

Smiling is so important. Makes you feel human, sometimes the whole of your day goes by frowning at the computer screen, till suddenly someone makes a joke and you laugh your guts out....and it seems so alien, yet so right and suddenly the line between your eyes is gone..

So people forget and have their moods and while you did try, maybe they don't see you as a part of their lives, if its happening too many times in a row..something's wrong with you boss and you need to change.

Getting tired for the wrong reasons is not allowed. Mental tiredness makes you feel like butter stretched too thin....weary and old. I feel old. But I am not and I see it in my eyes....So i'm going to resolve to not feel it. It's all in your hands...in your control. Worry when you have to, rest all is free will.

At the risk of sounding demented and mad, I shall say that life sucks..but i'm working at it. It's not so bad and If i keep on working like a dog and lamenting i have no life and i didnt enjoy it...or watch movies or go to lonavla in the rains..It's all upto me. To make it happen.

So I shall..And my writing has become pathetic..so post a day to get my writer to sway.

Sheesh :)