Weakness and Courage

Weakness - What defines it? What in your mind is weakness? or

Courage - What is courage? The ability to do what has to be done inspite of all odds or is that merely following of duty..or is it facing all your demons and accepting them and saying them out aloud

What happens when you put all your courage, all your wishes and all your dreams into someone else's hands...Therein lies great power. For the person can use it, to twist you, play games with you and mold you...and string you along like a puppet...which is what i am not scared of, becoz at one point the chain will snap and the tables will have turned, but even more so, what i have learnt to believe in is.....

That you tell all the truth, all there is to it and when you put them in someone's hands.. they now have the responsibility to hold your wishes, your dreams and your hopes...that scares them and in a way makes you free...since you have no more defences left, your all open and fresh....no more fighting, no more poking and no more circling around

There's freedom in that kind of unburdening, because i can raise my head and look in the eye, without feeling ashamed or guilty.

But I have to be careful to not let that whole quest for truth (And i dont mean to sound like gandhi) turn into a dogmatic, nagging furiousness. It has to be a choice and i cant push it.

I have tried to and realised that after all is said and done, my intensity and passion for right and wrong might be my undoing again..I dont mean to be content with what I have..But i dont mean to push either. I will simply choose to live my life...and see where it takes me

Morbidity is a part of all us..and I am discovering that I have more than the required quota for it